Why I hate Sundays?

Another seven months and I will be 30! I have grappled with heartbreak(s), fought anxiety, switched careers, made some great friends, travelled and most importantly, experienced a hell lot. The only good thing, which I feel about turning 30 would be that people will start taking me seriously! Everyone says I don't look my age so may be in seven months, I will start looking older. Wishful thinking, ah! Coming back to being in your late twenties--the number of single friends’ you have decreases as you climb the age ladder. Most of my friends are married, happily or unhappily, it is difficult to say. Some are ADJUSTING, some are taking it as a PART of life, hardly have I known anyone who comes and says, oh yes! It is wonderful! You should get married! It is out of the world! It is magical! This feedback coupled with the fact that I am single (I did try to change my relationship status but all in vain) reinforces my fear in men, relationships etc. My parents strongly believe that I have crossed the age where I can choose. I will have to adjust and compromise (that is what we equate marriage to), according to them. Yes, like every other middle class Indian girl, my parents have registered me for matrimonial sites and services. So yes, I am there in the arrange marriage MARKET and glad to inform that I don’t fit in because neither am I an engineer nor am I working in an MNC. Most people don’t understand my work, good for me I say. They feel self-employment equals to no security. Yes, my parents have got this feedback. “We want an engineer girl for our son”, “we are looking for a girl who is working in an MNC.” I am self-employed, what your engineer bahu will take 10 years to earn; I will do that in next five years. Huh! But who cares? They don’t and I don’t want them to! My work is just one of the many issues. The next one is hilarious. “Our son is too thin and they won’t look good together’. This was the guy’s sister referring to my physique. As a result, I hate Sundays. I wish could unsubscribe the newspapers which carry matrimonial or simply sue them for destroying my peace of mind.

All this makes me wonder do I really want to enter an arrangement? The answer most of the times is NO. I often ask parents, what's the worse that will happen if I choose to remain single? Will it be life threatening? I won't die just because I choose to remain single :P And please a sincere request, no sympathies, I don't want my friends and relatives to be commenting, have patience! You will find the right one soon!